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[May. 12th, 2009|11:16 pm] |
I get to go home thursday night. thats pretty awesome. I know ill love being home. I will certainly miss my friends here, but i might visit them. And my home friends and my girlfriend are fantastic. Freshman year, whattup. You were like a song from a good band you've never heard of. You sit there and say do i like this? And then the song hits it's stride and you say wow i could really see myslef liking this. And then you it ends and you say damn. That was good. I kinda wish it didn't end. idk, i always make music metaphors.
Stratford better get reeady. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 26th, 2009|09:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Say Anything | ] |
I have homework to do. So im going to do this instead. I saw Jack's Mannequin this afternoon and besides being beyond sweltering out i really liked it. They played a solid set, including Cavanaugh Park from the SOCO days.
School is going to be hard because i am so lazy and i actually have work to do. Awful awful.
There is much more taxing, important business on my mind but this is not the time nor the venue for that to be discussed. I am drained.
At least my roommate is sleeping in his girlfriends room tonight so if i have a breakdown it won't be awkward.
In other news, i am already uncomfortably sunburned and hating this weather. WTF summer. You suck. |
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[Mar. 30th, 2009|12:42 am] |
there are so many things that i want to do that i feel like i could never do. i know that i should think positively if i want to do them, but i do a much better job thinking everything is the end of the world. Maybe it is. No, its not. Im still searching for who i am and i wish i could find him. oh well.
As a side note, everyone should go listen to a band called Manchester Orchestra.
hopefully i won't be as melodramatic in the morning. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2009|06:17 pm] |
so i got my backpack and three textbooks stolen last night. cool. I have the play in like 3 days. cool. I'm behind on my school work. cool. I act like an asshole all the time now. cool.
My life is cool. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2009|02:04 am] |
im waiting for my laundry, so im going to update because i never ever do.
im living my life. This semester is okay so far. My classes are all pretty standard, none to awesome or terrible. One of my roommates moved down the hall so i got some extra space so thats sweet. It is fun here, but you know home is great too. Im in my first college production, Shakespeare's As You Like It. I have the smallest part possible i think. lol. It really time consuming which kinda sucks but its fun. Im trying to learn wish you were here on guitar. I feel like im gaining weight but idk if i actually am. I miss maggie. I wanna go to a show really bad. Its time to look for new sneakers i think. I want to be a better person and be able to admit that im wrong.
okay laundry time. I also want to see Prince really bad.
bye people. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
Dan Rahrig did it. And i know it's late but im gonna list some of my favorite albums of 2008. Cause i love music and I'm bored.So......In no particular order because i can't make decisions.........Comment with thoughts or if you want explanations or want to argue or whateverrrr
1. Underdog Alma Mater- Forever The Sickest Kids
2. Narrow Stairs- Death Cab For Cutie
3. Avalon- Anthony Green
4. Dance Gavin Dance- Dance Gavin Dance
5. Folie a Deux- Fall Out Boy
6. A Guide To Love, Loss And Depression- The Wombats
7. Used And Abused- Danger Radio
8. Tha Carter III- Lil' Wayne
9. Viva La Vida- Coldplay
Also, Check Out:::: We All Need A Reason To Believe- Valencia, Thursday's Four Tracks on the Thursday/Envy Split, Innerpartysystem- Innerpartysystem, The Morning Light- The Morning Light, Can't Stop, Won't Stop- The Maine
Music that would have made it if i listened to it more:: Way To Normal- Ben Folds, The Ocean And The Sea- The Sound Of Animals Fighting, Day & Age- The Killers, Oracular Spectacular- MGMT, The Glass Passenger- Jack's Mannequin
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[Dec. 13th, 2008|01:42 pm] |
i wish i was better.
i don't know why i cant be. |
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| Do we have time to follow our heart? |
[Oct. 20th, 2008|12:07 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
Class in about 12 hours, good time to update i guess. i had a good weekend and now im back in Poughkeepsie. One half of the semester done. it goes pretty quick. It seems like everyone is having a good time doing whatever it is that they are doing. which is good. Am i having a good time you ask? sure. Is college the great time everyone says it is. Not yet. but whatever. I've decided that there is no point in doing something if you are not having fun. why suffer? it doesn't make sense. So. whatever man. i don't mean to be depressing. im not depressed. It just like. When you lay down at night, trying to fall asleep, is there a churning going on that tells you that there must be more than this routine and this existence? A feeling that there could be so much more? its a rhetorical question. |
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| shakespeare |
[Sep. 6th, 2008|01:52 am] |
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow creeps in this petty pace from day to day to the last syllable of time and all our yesterdays have lighted fools the way of dusty death. Out, out brief candle. Life's but a walking shadow. A poor player who struts and frets his hour on the stage and then is heard from no more. It is a tale told by an idiot. A tale filled with sound and fury, signifying nothing. ~Macbeth, Act 5
I like. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2008|10:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Motion City Soundtrack | ] |
T.J.'s Geniuses of the month. (in no particular order)
-Chris Carrabba
-Ben Gibbard
-Jesse Lacey
-Andrew McMahon
-Justin Pierre
Ain't nobody got it like they got it. If you dont know who they are, youre missing out. in my humble opinion anyway. Now i just need to write as well as them and I can join the list. yeah right. |
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[May. 21st, 2008|10:07 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
im very mixed up. the person this is mostly to will never see this, but i dont give a shit. i feel like a bad person, a generally bad person. not oh its a joke, TJ's a dick haha. a legitimate poor human. i never meant for it to happen, i never thought it would. i screwed up big time. what can i do? nothing. i cant think of anything to do. i betrayed you and i dont know if youll be able to forgive me. maybe i dont deserve it. who knows. i just wish it didnt have to be like this. |
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[May. 5th, 2008|10:54 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing actually. | ] |
another birthday almost over, one of the best ive ever spent. i always feel like everyone is so nice to me on my birthday and i dont really deserve it, or that i dont thank everyone or seem grateful enough for all the things that were done for me. two surprises in one day was mad cool. im 18 now, so i guess thats cool. my life right now is pretty cool. and i guess thats all that matters. im going to go to sleep cause i have the AP stats test in the morning. whoops, waste of time and money. but i am going to toads to see the Fall of Troy which is badass. im really anxious right now but i think its cause im all emotional from today. hopefully i dont throw up. love to all. thanks again everyone who saw me, talked to me, wrote on my facebook wall or did anything to make me feel awesome today. |
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[Mar. 8th, 2008|03:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bright Eyes | ] |
"We seem to try in the simple, furious span of the individual to draw a savage indictment of the contemporary scene or to escape from it; into a make-believe region of swords and magnolias and mockingbirds which perhaps never existed anywhere. Both of the courses are rooted in sentiment; perhaps the ones who write savagely and bitterly of the incest in clay-floored cabins are the most sentimental."- William Faulkner
If you didn't follow that, its okay. I read it like 10 times before i realized it holds a universal truth. There is always more feeling with pain then there is with happiness. Passion comes from a dark place. Why are so many of our favorite songs, stories and movies sad? because sadness is something everyones feels. It hits harder. It cuts us to the core of our very being. and for those who do not often feel extreme emotions, its a chance to feel something. Hurt and loss breed great things, so one can't wish for the banishment of these feelings. Having your words stick in your throat, mixing with the choked back tears and creating a sharp pain, only outdone by the utter emptiness that is growing in your gut makes you stronger. or so we tell ourselves.
I don't mean to be depressing, but unfortunately, i have a difficult time being positive. I hold with me an overwhelming feeling that mostly all the dreams we have in this lifetime will stay dreams. That there is something else in this life that we are missing, and that most of us will never achieve the thing that will make us whole. i am probably naive in some respects but i accept that. sadness sticks with you much longer than happiness because it is stronger. because it is something you can cling to. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2008|04:08 pm] |
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| | lghfjsdjfb | ] |
| [ | music |
| | remembering sunday | ] |
2008 is gonna be weird.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2007|12:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | thrash metal | ] |
last night was the most insane show i have ever been to. I don't even know. my body hurts. but it's a good hurt. |
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[Dec. 14th, 2007|11:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | eww | ] |
| [ | music |
| | break myself. | ] |
well. ive been in a bad mood these past few days for no real reason in particular. thats even worse than knowing why you feel like crap. i guess ill snap out of it. but i just miss the days when stuff was easy. i wish i knew what people were thinking too. cause then it would be easy and i would be in a good mood again.
snow days on which i get nothing accomplished make me feel pretty stupid.
I feel stuck. and i like freedom. wow im bad at writing feelings down. or having them all together.
has anyone ever felt like there should be something else in this life? you only get one, and when you end the day, you feel a void. a hole that keeps you from feeling whole. that leaves you with insecurities. and just questions. fuckin A |
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[Nov. 8th, 2007|06:09 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | When There Was Me And You | ] |
well hello there. my life is pretty good i guess. im holdin it down even though im busy as a hot whore at a comic book convention. yes that was a shot at nerds and their lack of sexual activity. I saw hairspray and it was sick. it reminded me of high school musical and how awesome it was and how awesome the cast was and how awesome the director was. Im sorry but i dont think STAGE can compare. Im having second thoughts about little women. like i dont feel like going nuts over it when i just want to have a life in my senior year. but i feel like i will be letting mad people down if i dont. idk. but in better news, im pumped to bring collin to his first show on saturday and hopefully its good. college shit is going pretty smoothly so im all set there. i hope. ive been in a good mood. i am also struggling with another situation but that is a whole other thing that i dont care to go into at this point in time. i think the cold weather does this too me, i feel revitalized. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2007|11:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | American Dream by Parade The Day | ] |
shittttttttttttt. i have an english essay, a health essay, and independent reading project and a physics essay all due like a week or less from now. which is less than a week before high school musical open which i am super nervous for. i hate school so much.
i really wanna see nightmare before christmas in 3D.
oh i guess i gotta do all that stuff for college too.
nah, who goes to college anyway.
my boss is gonna be pissed that i cant work for like two weeks straight.
oh well ima punch her in the face anyway.
The spill canvas has horns the chorus of this song and its awesome. cause they arent ska horns. they are like non whack horns.
its way to fucking hot for oct fucking tober.
im out for now. sweet. |
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[Oct. 8th, 2007|07:22 pm] |
maybe this one will work. |
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